Thursday, December 4, 2008

Let me write you a note…

Dear John,

I have come to report that there is a strong possibility that we are headed in a reasonably difficult situation. Because you insist upon doing things your way, we may not survive this relationship thing we have embarked upon. I must remind you that we agreed that this journey would be about us building a life together. We did not say that it would be a convenient arrangement between two individuals. I feel as if we are not moving in a positive direction. Instead we just continuously have these positive moments that make the negatives seem dissipate into the background. I am not exactly thrilled at the way our relationship is playing out. It is time that we do something different. We need to look at ways to improve our current situation. I see the possibilities in us but there's no use in seeing them if no one is going to work toward achieving them.

I know that being with you is not a mistake. I admit that we make a good combination. But it is time that we make the right combination that will improve our current state of existence. We need to be more than what we have been. Eight years is a long time to live stagnant. Never really going forward and not necessarily going backwards. But just standing still in hopes that something will change. Well it is a known fact that if you continue to do the same thing, you can only expect the same thing. But if you want to change, you cannot continue to do the same thing. You have got to make a serious effort to do things differently. That is where I am right now. I can see where we are going. But I just need to know that you are with me.

We need a new beginning. So we need to start in the here and now and make a serious commitment to change. We need to evolve and become more than what we have been. It is imperative that we take this relationship to another level. We can do this thing. But I can't do alone. I need my partner. I need the person that I agreed to spend the rest of my life with. I need you. We can do this thing if you are willing to admit we need a change and help in the process. If I take one step, I want to feel you right there take one step or even two with me. I see the endless possibilities. But I just want you to see them for yourself.

Do I love? Most definitely! But do I want to continue this never ending cycle we can't seem to get off? NO! I want more. I want more for me, for you, for our children. I want to leave a legacy for our children. I want our children to know what it feels like to be empowered and to be a loving relationship. I want our children to know that their dreams aren't impossible. I want them to see in us the endless possibilities that the love between a man and a woman can have. And I know that we can give them that. We just need to construct a plan and adhere to it. It's time baby! It's time for us to take a stand and do it together.

So what you do think? Do you see what I see? Do you understand where I am coming from? I can hope so. Until you decide otherwise…. I will be patiently waiting for your response.

Until next time…

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